Colours Rock

2009-09-12T01:02:00.002+08:00

An issue of the heart.

NO NAME MENTIONED HERE, SO DON'T WILD GUESS THE GIRL I AM TALKING ABOUT!!!!

Feeling a bit nostalgic recently. All thanks to the songs that played around me, which kinda tempt me to admire my past desire but certainly not falling back! Well, how should I begin...

Perhaps by looking at those picture cures a bit but that wouldn't do much. It's been months since I last thought about her and to find me missing her again sound totally adsurd. Things must have changed for her and nothing seems to hold her back this time, those people whom she called friends seems to slowly vanished. Good for her, because that's the way I wanted to see her, without those who only use words and no action to express their void love to one another.

To learn the news that she is(was) being attached made me feel 1/3 sad, 1/3 stunted, 1/3 empty. I don't know why this happens when I don't care, maybe is those music that reached into my heart and kinda pull out the emotions in which I buried for a long long time.

I wanted to go East Coast Park with her at night together and stroll slowly along the cool night breeze, then telling each other secrets we never knew about. That's what I wanted to do, but that's something I would never be able archieve no matter the greatness I have. Too bad for me she wouldn't know.

Fine, I lose... I lose to my soft self. I couldn't help thinking about her despite buried the thoughts and memories. No doubt I lose to that guy too, but that's a minor case, he will lose too(and so will she?).

Yesh, I am writing something quite personal here, but not private. (Surprise?) First time writing about something so not-me, so I hope the language for description is fine. =D

2009-09-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

My Happy 18 Birthday!

29.08.2009 - I love this day, it's a Saturday and so many people celebrated my birthday with me!!! It was filled with so much fun, laughter and surprise. It's a dream birthday celebration anyone could wish for, and it is made possible by all of them. I love the idea of going to Escape Theme Park, never been there before but it's the people whom I went to that count. =D

The joy don't stop there! The fact that Kun Sheng is here made the day even more special, it feels great having this Taiwan guy around, his vulgarities jokes is the best I've heard and yup, I miss this guy as a friend. Glad that he relax himself too, he deserve much rest. Kinda make me miss the days in Bedok Town when we walk home together, study together and ranting together, study together and escape from the "aunty" shop together because of the milo. Hahaha!

Then we go have great time playing!!!! Sorry i am quite lousy in arranging the picture and it's also quite troublesome doing here, so I will just write my post longer.(heehee! sorry!)

Looking at those picture (there's more in facebook), I can't help it but to ask myself - When was the last time I laugh my heart out loud? It's been a long long time ago.

Sebass, DZ, Kun Sheng, Jasmine, Damien, Jeffrey, Els - you guys are my funny friends, hahaha!!!

Jasmine witty surprises and little efforts works in organizing this little celebration a big success. =) I feel so loved by her action and of course, I love you Jasmine!!! =D

So you thought, that's all? WRONG, DEAD WRONG!

At night, Damien lost his wallet (and I want to kill him for THAT!!!). He shocked me! (DAMN YOU, DAMIEN, DAMN YOU!) Make me so nervous and I wanted to help me find his wallet back desperately but I didn't realized that he tricked me! Stupid Damien is merely pushing time so others can buy me a cake, hahahaha!!! Sweet, that's the sweetest cake! And then we sat down on an open field, a small gathering and finally, a present!!!!

Seriously, I never expected it, nor I predicted it... It's an ipod! I know I asked for it but I don't really mean it although I want it badly. And poof!!! It's in front of me!!! Perhaps it's not the fact that an ipod appeared that made me jump with joy, it's the very last surprise of that day, yes, it's another surprise that made me laugh out loud. Thank you everyone, thank you!

Come to think of it - ipod = friends. So I am actually carry my friends everyday. For this very reason, I promise not to lost it, and take good care of it. =D

2009-08-01T19:54:00.005+08:00

It has been a long and tough month for Form Ex(ploration). Slept only 2 hour a day for the last 2 weeks before submission (including Sat and Sun, no game). Finally it's over but I doubt times like this will come back. Well, now the module is not so stressful, it's AutoCAD and 2D art. So I think I will be just okay.

Breaking News

North Korea has opened it's very first fast food restaurant. None of your business? You are so dead wrong, Singaporean. That restaurant is opened together with a Singapore company. It provide training for the workers in NK, yay!!! Finally we are doing something,

--End of NK update--

2D Art!!!!~~~

Actually, I am very impressed by many friends whose drawing were nothing but impressive. People like Leroy's, Si Yu's, Yu Ru's and Li Qi's drawing were amazing and I really like them. They know something about art and they deserve higher grade.

But of all those whom I mentioned, I gotta give praise to Si Yu for her willingness to teach Jing Wen on how to render. This kind of attitude is worth learning, perhaps I should do so too.

As for myself, it's discouraging. While everyone seems to be drawing on a old granny statue, lecturer wants me to draw OHP! I think only Shikin and I are drawing that, but... IT'S. O.K.

OHP is easier to draw and for my standard now, I think I will just stick to drawing object. It's more managable too.

But I will be learning too, I will keep on drawing until I get it right! And for each drawing I am going to draw, I will make sure I complete it even if it look like doodle!

Warning: I am using a HD viewfinder, while everyone are using SD viewfinder. Ha! I got the cutting edge advantage!

2009-07-08T15:48:00.004+08:00

It's 1 month and I am doing fine. In fact, better.

Many things in life started to change in an unexpected way and I am adapting to the new changes and decision, whether u like it or not. Those changes comes with lots of impact in my daily life, and in many ways, it changes me positively.

I pondered upon a few question about my life deeply, almost everything has it's own set of frustration. So I think I should begin with my biggest frustration. Cell Group. (It's the truth~ ) I put away some sensitive issues aside that should be addressed only face to face, all I wrote beyond this paragraph is as neutral as possible.

My First Frustration: Churchy Churchy!!!

Based on a typical weeks.

Monday ~ Thursday: No one from the Cell Group exist. Rarely they do.
Friday ~ Saturday: Praise God. Members exist for 3 hours. Go home.
Sunday: I don't know what happened on this day, but I am at home.

My future hinges upon one last decision that I am making for the Cell Group now, stay or leave? Now, this is getting interesting, isn't it?

My second frustration: Am I too emotional?

I think so lei, hahahaha... I always thought the lecturers has killer eyes when I asked questions (although I know they don't). They got the same "killer eyes" as Mirabell. Maybe 10 years down the road I can tell my children about my poly life. Hahahaha, that I'm too paranoid?! Hahahaha!!! Ok, the lecturers are fine, I think is my problem. Fine! Cut that out!

My third frustration: LOUD noises!

This is so pek chek!!! My life is so noisy, 24/7!!!

Based on a typical week, 24/7.

Morning:
Korean Songs (NOBODY, NOBODY BUT YOU!)

Noon:
English Band Songs

Evening (Daddy):
Cantonese and Chinese Rock Songs

Night (Brother):
Japanese Anime Songs (Genre include: From Rock to Ridiculous ). LOOP!
Clare's voice in video call(reason Clare is here:You're my brother's friend initially.")

I want peace!!! I want to listen to my "Strawberry Swing" by Coldplay.

My Final Frustration: The Pimple Revival Movement.

A pimple, codename: Blobby, outbreak on my right cheek. It ooze pus during unforeseen circumstance and finally subside( Hooray!) 2 weeks later.

1 night after Blobby disappeared, it's accomplice, codename: Leaky, outbreak beside Blobby. Currently, It just grow bigger and redder by the hours although it is somewhat painful. No pus bursting report so far (unlike Blobby who "shot" a blob of pus at someone, scarily!).

Alright. I am going to do FORMEX now!

BYE BYE!!!

2009-06-26T23:21:00.009+08:00

It's been quite sometime since I felt so love by many people. I got to admit that love is not all time sweet as I thought and assume, there's disappointment, conflict, quarrel and heavy heart. However, things are not all that bad, really. From those moments, I learned and experience something new, Intimacy. I never felt that way for a very, very long time already.

Because of what they say and did, I felt so much better. I found that those whom I actually spend the most time with don't understand me and those whom I didn't spend time with know me inside out! Cute isn't it?

Tell me, which would you say is the best remedy for an empty heart?

"Pray to God, I've been through what you've been through also. You must come to church to seek God because (followed by tonnes of theories and advice)."
"Tell me your problem, it's ok la I love long story."

( And I'm not making this up!)

Listen closely in your heart, which do you think provide a listening ear. Then tell me who is a better friend to me, tag me if you want. If not, it's ok.

I choose the second option, to be honest. Because come to think of it, first option lack intimacy I used to recieve(and also attention, please) from people.

I must really thanks Jasmine, she's probably the sweetest friend whom I met. In fact, just her presence is really enough, but she went the extra mile to make me feel better, very caring and thoughtful. I enjoyed the walk at east coast , the talk we had, the silence, the presence, the laughter and the time we sing together. I would like to spend time with her there longer. Please remain that sweet, because I like you this way. =D (=P)

Gerald: WHEN YOU WANNA WATCH TRANSFORMER 2?(Feel proud now, eh? I thought you want your name to be here big big.)

2009-06-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

I wish I could be somebody else, I am becoming somebody I can't even define myself. Driven by duty and routine, I am turning into a cyborg, programmed by schedule of another person and church service. Who am I really?

I am a fool. I have been stuffing myself in telling myself that I understand love, becoz I have so much sermons about relationship from the church. I am so freaking wrong, to a small extent I feel I am cheated by those sermon. When the hammer struck me, it struck me hard because for the first time of my 3 years in church, I finally feel the crunch of loving another person and making decision to spend time for those whom I care and love on a service day. Then I realized this decision I made was not out of duty but out of willingness.

It has been a long time since I feel with emotions, and even longer since I last experience love for friends and from friends. Honestly, I have been isolating myself from many friends because I have not been able to attend their gathering which mostly falls on the Friday and Saturday. What about Cell Group? Let's put it this way: Everyone are too busy seeking God.

The balance of my friendship is changing and I am not going to be oblivious to every changes that is happening. I think it is still too early to write anything about the progress but for now, I will leave my Saturday routine behind and once again spend time with people I love most. All I know is that this love needs no rescue plan, all it need is quality time.

I am beginning to experience love in it purest form. I no longer made decision based on duty but based on willingness. Yes, it might be a breakthrough, also a breakthrough for my decision making.

2009-06-12T15:19:00.004+08:00

HIRING !!!

Hello people, thank you very much for visiting my blog! =D Really appreciate your presence here and please tag me often, I love new messages in my blog. I wish to hear feedback from everyone about my blog, is the post too boring? Is the post too short (Clare strongly agree)? Is the music too lame?, etc. So if you have anything you wish too comment, please do!

MUSIC !!!

Of course, I have changed the music to keep the blog fresh. I've added two new songs which I feel might suits the majority, not too noisy and not too common. I am still looking for a few more tracks, so if you think there is some songs that are relaxing (most importantly, it should not be noisy), let me know and I will put it in. =)

Looking Forward !!!

18 June - I wanna go ice skating with everybody in EVD!!!

I wanna go lunch with secondary school friends!!! Eileen Lim Jia Ni, I know RP not so stress now, so please make time.~

From Jaden with love,

THE END, Bye Bye!

2009-06-11T00:16:00.004+08:00

I have got great news and I am really excited to share it. Trust me people, this month is the golden month for books! Spending less that $90, I am able to read 9 knowledge (and creative) filled articles and I am very trilled about it. I browsed through a few pages of every book and I am definitely going to love it! Not only that, I still had Christian Lacroix booklet to read, FOC from NMS.

O YES! For Discovery magazine, you pay 2 books for the price of 1. And for Home & Decor, you pay 3 books for the price of 1.

Discovery magazine gives u a free gift and a free Australia map. While Nat Geo gives u an Arctic map for free! Life is great!!! Hahaha!!! BOOKS RULE!

Okay! This is all about books, let me talk about... LOUD CAMP!!!

LOUD Camp was great, this year camp is a lot more interesting than the past. Talking about the "Fun- factor" there can be still improvement, but the "Wow- factor" is at all time high, not a dull moment. The team had done really well. Clap clap!!!~~

What make this camp interesting is actually not really the programme, but the people that participate in the programme! During the programme, I see rules challenged by the new friends and how "church" members handle the situation... It has a hilarious result, at least to my point of view. I will not elaborate here but honestly, there's nothing negative at all.

Then before we end the camp, we saw police!!! This shows that the camp was a success! Rest well people, this is a short post (to make my blog alive).

2009-06-04T00:52:00.005+08:00

Went for a walk an hour ago because I had to clear my mind for the competition, I had this mixed emotions stirring in me. On one end I felt depressed, but on the other end I felt happy (maybe due to the solitude).

Of coz, this mixed emotions has it's reasons. Depressed is because I felt my voices during consultation is left unheard and the ideation that I could not comprehend is being more elaborated, I.T is my nemesis, yes I prefer pen and paper! On this part, it is my loss.

BUT! No pain, no gain. Swee ask Joey to help me (muhahahaha!), and actually I love one thing that I think Joey said "If Great Wall of China was built today, it will not be a wonder already." -Ha! Revelation! She said something I could finally relate and ring a bell.

Back to the competition, I felt that I am such a drag. I am always skeptical and filled with doubt, always had silly and far-fetched ideas. Purhaps quitting and learn first would be a wiser approach, this hat is too big for me to put on. Retreat to recover is not shameful! Muhahahaha...

Look like the journey is not always smooth, there's a bit of bumps here and there but confirm lead me to somewhere (yeah!). I know I can see better days ahead, so I must quickly pack my feelings and go!

2009-06-01T23:49:00.006+08:00

In good mood today. Had a lot of ideas flowing, thanks to Mirabell and Li Qi. I should quickly show it to my team! Wahaha, hope they like it and not so stuck anymore, Jaden to the rescue!!! =D

Dun really wanna write a long post today but had a few interesting pictures to show you guys. Not really funny, but I think it still qualified as interesting. Very sad to say, I got a habit of saving MSN messages but it's really not a bad habit, it's a fun habit.

WTH are you thinking Eileen?!

In MSN (and SMS), it's really extremely difficult to get my message across to Mirabell. She just don't get my message. Hahaha.

Also, I finally adapted the EVD life! Well, let me show you my version of illustration.

1 month ago...

1 month later (and beyond)...

Alright, that it for today, Next week then I upload Shi Hui blog link and do some music update.

2009-05-27T18:51:00.012+08:00

Behold!!! - I have finally established some blog link and I will be your trusty visitor from now on. If I forgot to place your link, please write on my tagboard and I will place it ASAP.

Went out for dinner with Jasmine last Sunday. Awww... she grew fatter and rounder but that's a good thing, means she's living OK. As usual (and I guessed it), she's late by 15 min but I'm used to it.

Ha! Look like she finally met her Nemesis in poly, that is... Design! It's an assignment given by her lecturer and I got 5 words to voice out:

Jasmine. You. Are. So. Dead.

She's in Engineering btw! And of course, how could just look at her suffer. I will help her with my best ability, how? No way I am revealing. But I hope my help does work, considering I took DnT before.

See, So much fats around the face.

So, after dinner, I went to her house to take my bottle and towel. And I decided to do something very, very gentlemen that is closing the door for her. But something unexpected happened.

The door knob drop down behind me! Hahaha... and I was like "OMG, is this really happening in real-life again?" This is the second door knob that I've pulled out! The first knob was pulled out in 2005, Bedok Town Sec Sch, Music Room. It's an archievement in life.

Here's the prove!

Here's the culprit!

Nothing much happened back in her home, I watched History Channel and then I go home. That's all, really. But I looked forward to spend time with her again, everytime around her I felt relax and calm, maybe is due to the peaceful atmosphere her living area could provide.

Okay,COLLAGE!!!~ Alright, that will be my next post then!!! =D

STAY TUNE?!

2009-05-24T00:41:00.006+08:00

Recently, I have joined Leroy's team in participating for the Central Glass International Architectural Design Competition. I hope that this competition is within our grasp and within our abilities. We hope to win the award of 2mil Yen and the gift.

The competition is really wild! It's as if the world is our playground, we could build anything, anywhere, anyhow! This get me excited and panic because this is what I am looking for. I hope we can do this, and succeed. In any case the team will want to give up, I will still participate myself, but I don't think this will ever happen.

While storming ideas for the competition, I realised that many things cannot go according to "textbook concept" and must be "out-of-the-box". I never do anything like this before! But still, everything is an opportunity and I am out to seize it.

Cute huh?! Those expression on their faces shows their commitment to their work. Keep it up!

And, I dunno how to edit the blog link!!!! Help anyone?!

2009-05-17T16:15:00.017+08:00

EVD, 1st month Personal Recount - Three Words: Stressed, Friendly, Fun-loving.

I really love this scene, dun really know who the photographer is but I love the bustling feeling. And o yes, I love this bright studio. Although sometime archi drawing and comdi can get really stressful, I found that the year 2 and lecturers are always around to lend us a helping hand. =) Critique or advice, to me both are helping.

About friends and studio mates? Yup, still in friendly terms with everyone. Hopefully everyone feels the same way too. =)

Lecturers? So far so good. I won't dare to put more comment! IT. IS. FOR. SAFETY. PURPOSES.

Awww... Sleeping in the studio, hahaha. C'mon, I slept only 2 hours the night before! A nap before presentation but it was rather futile, I still end up forgeting my script. Even cue card dun help!

Thursday was hell and Friday was ugly, the presentation that my group and I present wasn't as good as I wanted it to be. I am not talking about the group overall performance but solely on my performance, I feel I dragged the whole group down. BUCK UP, Jaden, BUCK UP!

Alright, enough of myself, I wanted to introduce the people I met so far!

EVDian 2009 - Very proud to be working with them. Full of life and everything.

Sorry Leroy, this is the best picture I can find for you.

LUNCH BUDDY!!! Mirabell and Shi Hui! Huang Chong... Where are you~~~! Lol

Jingwen and Xiaoyi !!!

Twisty, Madeline, Li Qi, Melissa, Hazel, Haeqal!!!

If I ever missed out anybody, I will compensate it by posting it in near future, lol... now too lazy to find in facebook.

2009-05-09T23:37:00.010+08:00

First off, I will link all the people I know SOON. I PROMISE.

Freaking Stress! I really feel like drowning. EVD is like... drawing after drawing, presentation after presentation. 3 Years... Long way to go, now is only week 3, haiz.

So far in EVD I met many kind people, they v funny also. The year 2 lend us a helping hand too! Kai En always lend me her drawing tools, gotta thanks her for that! Actually come to think of it, all the year 2 helped me at least once before! Hahahaha!!! For any year 2 who see this, I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU! (and pass it on, thanks!)

If you are curious what had happened to the pixels cloud in the studio, it's HERE!

(Living Room)

And I really like to laugh at this, writing ABC. Only on EVD.

O yes, and for my many friends, I would like to tell u guys I really missed all of you. Sometime I feel so empty without seeing you people. Although I am freaking busy, I will try to find time for everyone. =)

hehehe...

that's not my finger btw.

I am expecting in October. =D

Actually, I cant wait to do some architect model and develop my design concept, it's the truth. Now I will just take things slow and easy.

2009-05-06T21:06:00.004+08:00

Nothing speaks about my heart louder than this picture. I know every EVD student felt the same way. (AGREE?)

ComDI (Comuunicating Design Idea) presentation was a success. Phew, I recieve good news and overall,I am satisfied with my performance too. Of course, I would like to thanks Billy for his comments, Alvin for his "Prison" and many studiomate who gave me friendly advice.

2009-05-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

Archieved 9 hours of sleep today, finally.

Still chionging EVD work.

Created this blog to relieve stress from EVD work.

Continue Chionging EVD work.

EVD is stressful.